im in my yearbook class and there is nothing to do at all. im reading this book sadartha rite now for english. i like it a lot because i relate to sadartha. hes this brahmins son in india and he is constantly searching for himself and questioning life. the world, and the gods. Im always searching and thinking. i seem to get nowhere. all i have are theories and i how i feel. ive written so many of my thoughts. cuz i dont want to 4get them and just throw them away. they r important to me. and i doubt neone will even read this journal but thats ok. cuz i dont mind. i like writing. in fact sometimes i can get a lil carried away with it. there are so many questions that are running through my head. i think you have to spend enough time alone to be as weird as i am. most of the time i accept that and im thankful that im not just whizzing by in life. im glad im takin the time to just stop and take a look around me and actually make us of time and value it. while im on earth i dont just wanna make money and be "successful". i wanna learn and understand and have fun.